You ask…and I deliver

I always try to be composed, to be rational and take a step back in order to analyze certain situations. Most of the times this pretty much means letting things slide and not being bothered with them. However, when you do what you did, you’re just asking for it…

Little things like pronouncing my name incorrectly stop annoying me after I’ve corrected it several times. If it doesn’t change, I just don’t hear it anymore. And also in disputes I’m usually the one to dial down the awfulness of what the other has said or done, because I keep in mind that I may not have been the most rational one in the heat of the moment. So usually little arguments resolve themselves rather quickly and easily without too much effort on my part. But when you go all out and pull out all the stops like you did?? Damn girl you’re just asking for it…

Now if you’d ask my closest friends, they’d probably tell you that I let too many things slide, and that I try to be the bigger person by ‘just being rational’ way too much even when it doesn’t really make sense. Even when every other person would loose their cool and go all out, I usually simply take a deep breath, take a step back and say: “Never mind…it’s all good.”

But when you do what you did, you’re really just asking to feel the excruciating pain.
When you intentionally steal and eat my BJ’s while you know that I’ve been on a diet for the last six months. While you know that I’ve been deprived of my two best friends in the whole wide world for half a year and you know the BJ’s was my reward for doing so well…

I say screw being the bigger person: I WILL END YOU!!

Malibu Moments

Was it worth it…

When you find yourself running for the train in the morning and you miss it anyway, you might wonder: Was it really worth it??

We stress sp much about the littlest things in our every day lives, that it’s hard to see what really matters. We get so caught up in running that we forget where we’re running to.

So when you find yourself burned out at the age of 20-something, you might ask yourself: Was it really worth it??

Because we run so much and encourage others to do the same, we’re constantly telling ourselves that we’re not running fast enough, that we should do more, and do it faster.
That if we don’t, we’ll be failures, that if we fail we won’t achieve our goals.

True some of us have already set them, but most of them may have possibly set unrealistic goals for themselves. For example: Is it technically possible to have your own record label at the age of 17? Sure, it’s possible, I know one case in which it was proven to be, however this hardly means that it’s likely to happen. It’s much more likely that you have to take several years working at establishing your own record label. But still people set out a one year plan and hope they’ll be set to swim in music revenues by the time the new fashion season arrives.

The result again being, people being disappointed with themselves, and telling themselves to go faster, do better, to work harder and to not be such a pansy. Meanwhile I’m wondering…Is it really worth it?? Is it really worth destroying your own self-image, your peace of mind and your sate of well-being??

Aside from overambitious goals there are always those who don’t know what they want yet, they just know they want to live a glorious and splendid life. They’re convinced that if they just push themselves and if they just push at it and if they just keep running, it’ll all work out. And maybe it will work out one way or another. But then again, when you find yourself at the age of 46 in a marriage that has RUTT written all over it, with three adolescent children, working at whatever mind numbing job you were able to score and considering a trip to the supermarket to be the highlight of you week, you might wonder…was it all really worth it?

I’m not saying don’t set goals, don’t try to achieve. I’m just saying, take some Malibu moments…take some time to reflect. Take some time to see where you’re going and to look around and choose what you want, to enjoy everything and to experience life and to make your life worth living.