I love x7

- I love my piano ( I know it;'s getting old, but it's still very much the truth. She soothes me and she makes me smile:).

- I love the sun, I know the person who I was inspired by to write all of this wrote this down as well, but it's just to good to not mention!

- I love my nephew who I grow fondly of and Love a little more each day. His smile can make my day.

- I love the fact that I can gush about things so blantently and not get sick to my stomach like I used to:P

- I love the food my mom cooks. Now I've eaten good food in my life, in many places, but none of the food was ever as good as my mom's. But then again, she just rocks!

- I love to get dressed up and try on every summery outfit I have in my closet and then take pictures of my self in all of them, just because I can!

- And off course...I love my boyfriend and all my friends:P(to bits)!

From another life...

I thought this was new ground I'm on. I thought I hadn't been here before.

But I think I have. The walls are painted differently, instead of carpet wooden boards now cover the floor. But it is the same place.

The same old building, with dark rooms and big sturdy pillars. This is defenately the place. The place where I was first confronted with my own irrationality, where I was forced into believing in my own disposibility and replacebility.

And now, here I am again...

The boy who cries, I just don't give a sh*t...

It's not that I forgot to call,
I just didn't care enough to remember

It's not that I don't want to visit you,
I just don't care enough to

It's not that I don't want to say hi for you to them,
It's just, that I don't care

It's not that I don't want you here,
I just don't really care if you are

It's not that I don't love you he said,
I simply do not care...

The Real World

It´s about to start...

The real world that is. I’m soon going to be leaving my sheltered, funloving life in which I can be funny and easygoing as most things in it .

I´m almost done with my bachelors degree and because I slacked off a year, I now have no money saved up for my masters degree. Sucky indeed, however, it does kind of force me to get ready for the “real” world...

Eventhough this is an exciting prospect in a way, it also scares me shitless. I mean, what do I know about the “real” world right?? I almost have a bachelors degree in ‘Can-anybody-really-say-what-it’s-About-ology’ And that honestly prepared me for pretty much nothing.

As SATC’s lead-character once said this is not a good economie in which to be whipped cream. And this is very much true in my case. People with real degrees who actually know things aren’t able to get jobs, how on earth am I going to be able to find one?? Not to mention my complete lack of experience at any real job, my half assed internship and my complete lack of selfconfidence when it comes to a real job (you might have picked up on the whole selfconfidence thing already).

So in the “real” world, as I like to call it, I’m much more screwed and screwed up then I am funny and easygoing as are most things in it...

Thumbs up and mozzeltov to me!

My reality

As I sit on the kitchen floor, wearing my boyshorts, a tank, my grey flowy vest and his wollen socks, while he’s making us breakfast, I realize something:

I really love this man...

Eventhough I’ve known this for quite some time now, there’s something about this moment that makes it abundantly clear that I do. There’s something about this moment that makes it impossible for me to even imagine ever not being able to love him.

Other peoples reality presses me to think otherwise and to keep in mind that dispite my feelings now, this might be different someday.

But in this moment other peoples realities are just that, theirs. This right here is my reality, ours. And in our reality, right this second, I could love this man forever.

Before he turns to pick up my breakfast and hand it to me I stop him and kiss him.

Because this moment is ours...