Wouldn’t that be great ?

I can say I’m in Limbo, and who knows maybe I am.
But the reason I am is really just because I’m scared shitless, scared to go out on a limb, scared to be out there.

I keep remembering this post
Getting chickened out of love
And however much it was a conversation with a friend that made me write that, that particular day, it still was o so very applicable to me, even at that time.

Right now…it might be, but do to me being scared shitless I’m “not sure”.
I really hate this bullshit, I really wish things like this wouldn’t be such big things. That way, it’d be so much easier. If everybody would just be chill and honest about everything, we, I, would never have to be in this position.

Wouldn’t that be great?

If it wouldn’t be such a big thing to get rejected, if people weren’t inherently cruel, if people didn’t think people are inherently cruel, if people’s ego’s wouldn’t be so easily damaged, if people’s hearts weren’t so easily crushed, If the whole love you/like you-thing wouldn’t be such a big issue,

Wouldn’t that be great?