Big Conversations

You bothered? ‘Cause I’m not bothered.
Untrue, I am bothered, big time.
And I know if I address it, discuss it and just talk about it, it would be better. But better for whom? For me, that’s right. But what about people around me? What about them?

I’ve been feeling like scratching out my eyeballs all day, and ok, that’s never a good thing, and ok, that’s usually a sign that I might want to address what’s bothering me. But the reason I’ve been feeling like scratching out my eyeballs isn’t so much because something’s bothering me (Let’s be clear though, something IS indeed bothering me very much). It’s mostly because I don’t feel like I can discuss it. Because of earlier mentioned other people.

I know the right thing to do is to sit them down, and have a conversation with them about this. Or maybe it isn’t and I’m just hormonal and I’ll feel completely different tomorrow, and everything will be right as rain. Or maybe it won’t and I will have to have that big conversation with them. Who knows.. all I know is that I suck at the big conversations, so I’m kind of hoping the whole “everything is right as rain- thing” will work out tomorrow.