Get up…

I was rooting for some sunshine today..
Praying even, and I’m not Christian.
My prayers weren’t answered…
It’s cloudy when I open my eyes , and try to figure out how I ended up on the wrong side of my bed. My head’s supposed to be on the other end.

Today is going to be different, It has to be.
Never mind the sun not shining. Never mind it not being warm.
Never mind the fact that the world looks at least as shitty as I’m feeling.
Never mind all of that.

I want to have a good day, a fun day. Not a “lets-do-nothing-again-day”.
The truth is, I’m sick of it. I’m sick of not minding me not doing anything. I’m sick of me not studying enough, and I’m sick of me just laying around all day.
Today Is going to be a good day.

I’m going to do stuff, fun stuff and less fun stuff, but I’m going to do stuff…
At least…I hope…