Trouble sleeping…

I’m lying on my bed. I can’t sleep. I’m staring at the wall…

I can hear my heart beating…

It’s starting to go faster…It’s starting to beat harder.
It’s making my head ache.
I grab my head between my hands…it hurts …

And the noise, the sound of my hart pounding so hard and so fast, the noise of all my thoughts. I can’t get them straight.

I can’t get my thoughts straight because there are to many of them.

I start breathing faster…still holding my head, still hearing everything I think…and then my heart starts aching as well…it’s pounding to hard en to fast for my own good…it hurts…

My head and chest feel like they’re going to explode…
My ears are burning…so many thoughts, so many screams inside my head…

My heart keeps pounding…I twist and I turn….I try to make the pain, the noise the heat, the pain…go away… but it won’t…it just hurts..

And then he walks in and looks at me…he being nobody I know…He looks at me and he comes closer…he sit’s on the side of my bed and wipes the sweat off of my forehead.

“poor little thing…you’re shaking…”
He keeps looking at me , all curled up, shivering and shaking, trying to keep my head from exploding…
He takes a syringe out of the white long coat he’s wearing…and he tries to prep it…
“Don’t worry baby…it’ll be over soon…you’re gonna be fine”.
I’m hurting so much…

I stop shaking… the sweating stops.
One single tear roles over my cheek…
I take a deep deep breath…
It’s calm in my head now…
All there’s left is the sound of my heart pounding calmly…

One tear lying on my cheeck...

I close my eyes…I fall a sleep…calmly…relaxed…

I’m sleeping…