three years…

April 21st 2004

That was the first day I wrote. An entry on a web log that is off course.
That was the first day I wrote down what was going on in my head.

I took some time too look at some of my blogs. And I started with the first off course. Really that wasn’t all that interesting, just me trying to be witty and telling some kinda non important things about my day and stuff. As I went through the entries I’ve made, it’s kinda funny to see how I’ve changed, and gotten to know more of myself and the way I think and work really.

Off course I still got lots to learn, but it’s still nice to see that I have changed, not only in the way I think, but also in the way I write. And it’s good to see that because I always think everything around me changes but I always stay the same. So now I’ve got proof I don’t.

In three years, which have probably been the three most hormonally influenced years of my life, I’ve been through a lot. Not a lot of dramatic things but I’ve mentally passed a lot of things…Boys, crushes, school, music, my life, where it’s going, and the way I felt and sometimes still feel suffocated with the way the world and my life and society is, friends, family, the way they make me feel, what they mean to me, gaining stuff, loosing stuff, gaining people, loosing people, acknowledging my faults, trying to better my ways, me feeling up, me feeling down, me taking care of my body, me struggling with it. So many things…

Really I’m glad I had the opportunity to write all those things down and reflect on them and put them into perspective. I’m really glad I was in some way able to share things that I wouldn’t share with people face to face, scared of being perceived as a weak person. I’m glad I was able to get it all out, that way I’ve got a smaller chance of turning in to a total psychopath.

So I hereby congratulate myself with my three year anniversary of blogging!

I hope it’ll have the effect that I hope it will have.

Cheers, and to many more!

X, your provider of many mentally disturbed confessions throughout the passed three years.